Love Message From:    Amy
Age & Location:    17
Love Message To:    the one I haven’t even met.
Age & Location:    too far away
Your Message:

I want to fall in love.

I know what I want to fall in love with, but I haven’t found someone yet to fulfill the checklist. I know I’m a teenager and don’t know much about anything. But I do know what love looks like and feels like.See I think I’m in love.

But it’s too embarrassing to admit that the person I love lives miles away in another part of England. It strikes me as sad that a 17 year old has to find someone to love her over the Internet. Let’s call him A. He ticks all the boxes, but he’s older. I really dig him but I know that realistically- well it’s stupid. He doesn’t even know it you see, and we hardly talk anymore and yet when we do, it’s like all the world goes deadly quiet just so they can feel his warmth with me.Even if it is just down the phone. How can I love someone I hardly know? they say that every person has a soul mate and I think In some fucked up way Ive found mine in him. He loves what I love, he’s doing what I want to be doing. Ive even been thinking about going to university in Liverpool to be closer to him.

How ridiculous does that sound? I know it myself. I know that we’ll drift even further apart and we’ll probably never meet.But I also know that, every guy I met I will compare to A. I’ll see if I feel as happy with them as I do when I talk to him or if they make me laugh at myself when I’m trying to be deadly serious as much as he does.Or if they’ll think my weirdness and northern accent are as ‘cute’ as he thinks.

I keep asking myself the question, do I love him or how he makes me feel, or what he’s doing with his life? I know that love is not jealous but sometimes I find myself envying his life and his achievements. But the most painful thing is that I don’t have the nerve to say anything, because he’ll think I’m just an idiot.

I want to you to fall in love too.