Love Message From:    Mia Juelia
Age & Location:    Here
Love Message To:    The one in the message
Age & Location:    There
Your Message:

It has already been nearly two months, and I still cannot forget those moments. I am not sure what had happened to me.This is bad.She has been in my mind since that first meeting.I am in fear that I am liking her more which I am not supposed to. I do not want to encounter the same problems or issues I had experienced. Liking someone too much and then I drifted myself away avoiding the person. I had reminded myself uncountable but I am still facing the same situation right now. It seems like I am not learning from my mistakes nor my experiences. My feelings are embedding my rational right now. I am liking or falling for someone that I should not feel at all.

I still cannot forget her looks, her eyes, her slight smile, and how she communicate with me even though it was only a few minutes of interaction. She is very beautiful. And I do not want to use that as the reason I should like her. I did before many times liking someone be it a guy or girl for their appealing looks, and I had ended up not liking their personality at all. This is an exception to my closest friends whom I know them and their personality matches with me.

I kept flashback on the day itself, starting from the start I entered into the place till checking out the random photos I had taken which I saw her in it. I could remember clearly that I saw her at the entrance but I avoided myself from looking at her. I could sense that she was few distance away from me when I was walking at the opposite direction. I know I saw that same person but I avoided looking again. I just had a quick glance. I had been trying to make sure that I avoid seeing her. I remembered that I told myself not to look at the direction as I feel magnetized at both situations. I just did not want to feel attached or attracted to that person.I remembered clearly.

We met and talked when we ended up seeing each other at the premise. That lead to the eye contacts and her first smile (which I responded shyly) and all which had made me went bonkers these few weeks.

I just cannot forget when she came near to me to show something, how breathless I was. Inhaling hard and not being myself. I can feel her closeness, which I find it like ‘why she has to do that?’.Since that day, I just could not forget the look of her eyes, her gaze, her smile,the way she talked and her hair. Even though we talked and met only for less than ten minutes, I could feel her presence, her closeness and the touch of her jacket on my skin. I have no idea why all those slight moments are still fresh in my mind.

I do not understand why.But avoidance seem to be not a solution to any of my problems. She is in my mind till now which I don’t think it is a mutual feeling.