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Love Message To:    My Dearest J.
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My Dearest J.

You have been the light that has guided me for so long.

Though we are not together, you have never been far from me. I have been head over heals in love with for as long as I can remember. Long car rides, trips for ice cream, a walk just to buy a freezie. Later on going to clubs, concerts, and pubs.

For the longest time I was able to hide my true feelings for you, but then I just could not any longer. I made sure that you knew how I felt. It was so exhilarating when I found you starting to share those same feelings.

Though so long ago, that time is the most vivid of my life. I can recall so many of the thoughts, feelings, events and kisses that we shared.

That time has come and gone, and I don’t wish to dwell on the past, I have never gotten past you. Yes, I am in a different place now, but that is not to say that I still don’t wish that it was with you. And now, all these years later, it seems like we are right back to where we started. I don’t know what you are feeling and I know all too well that it is only you that can tear me away from the life that I have now, a life that up until a few short weeks ago I was happy with. Now once again, you have turned it around.

How do you manage to do that? I know all too well. Your eyes are the most beautiful sight. More beautiful than the rainbow that appears as it lights up the fields of flowers draped against a stormy sky, than a dew covered butterfly in the first glow of morning light, than the ocean waves crashing against a sandy beach. They are enchanting, delighting and mesmerizing; a maze I have no choice but to get lost in.

The last time we were together, I noticed how many different looks you can have within just a few minutes, each one as beautiful as the last. All these years of paying attention to you and I am still in awe of you. How your nose wrinkles when you smile, how you light up a room, how you smell. I wonder how it is you are not in a relationship? I can’t believe anyone would not want to be with you… granted I made my own mistake so many years ago, but I could not turn back.

Can we be together again? Is that possible? I should accept the friendship that we have now, build on it and hope that we can accept each other for the lives that we have and be happy just being a part of them together?

I am consumed by you, my love. My heart beats just so that I can hear your voice. You occupy all of my thoughts. Waking moments I long to hear from you, and when asleep I dream of you. I miss you when we are apart.

I want to touch you when we are together, you know, the little brushes that make my heart race. Reach across the table and touch your hand as we laugh together, brush against you as we walk together. I walk you to your car, hoping that I can kiss you goodnight.

It has been so long since I have been inspired to create anything beautiful. I could not see beautiful in the world around me, and now that I have found you again, colours are brighter, the sky is bluer, and the world is more defined

I have waited so long to tell you, and it is not that I embarrassed to say, I love you.

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