From: Jo Hale, 37, United Kingdom
To: Wild Birds, UK

Babies of mine
You were never born into this world.
However, that’s not to say I didn’t love you – I still do.
1997 and 1999 – both conceived February – two years apart – exactly.
Ironically, you both died at 8 weeks into my two pregnancies.
And I so grieved for you - both of you.
I think it was even worse the second time.
I grieved for the first all over again – the loss was unbearable.
Was it something I did? Why did you both die?
I’m a spiritual person -In so many ways
And have been to see many clairvoyants in my lifetime.
Several have told me that you were both girls.
That my Nan is looking after you both - as you grow up in the spirit world.
I think of you both frequently - Thinking of the ages you’d both be now.
What you would look like, what you would wear?
What things you’d like to do, the colour of your hair.
Would you be stubborn, shy, or extrovert?
Would you be creative, sensitive - maybe tomboys?
Would you look like me? Be similar to me in your ways?
As you know, I’m no longer with your Dad.
I know you watch over me – and you see it all.
You saw how he treated me – the mental and physical violence.
You were best off not being a part of that situation.
He may have turned on you, my lovely girls.
And you know, although I took the violence that he dealt me
I would have killed him if he had harmed either of you.
You would have loved Peter – my wonderful Husband now.
He would have treated you as he treats me – with love and respect.
It must be hard for him to listen when I talk about you both
Another man fathered you – (if that’s what you can call your dad)
But, he would love you as his own, had you been here with us, in our world.
I just wanted to tell you both that I still think of you – often.
You’re not forgotten - just because you are not here physically.
You probably already know, but it’s always nice to be told that you are loved.
Don’t give your Great-Nanny too hard a time, girls!
She’ll tell you off, and be cross with you both!
I know, from personal experience, when I was your age!
I also know that her heart will swell with pride when she looks at you both.
Say ‘hello’ to her, my Dad too, give them a hug and a kiss from me.
There are so many others – your family – you must have met up with them.
Say ‘hello’ to everyone – and I hope you will all meet me when I arrive there.
There is no time, not where you are. So however long it takes me
I will see you, my daughters, when it is my time. You’ll know when that is.
This was meant to be a poem for you both, but it’s turned into a letter!
But just expressing myself, to you both, like this, has helped me feel better.
(See, some of it rhymes!!) – God Bless Girls. Lots of love from Mummy xxxx