From: Nili
To: The One I’ll Never Have

You’ll the only one who could make me feel this sinking feeling, make my mind lose its sanity, make me lose control over my actions. You’re the only one who made me lose all trust in myself, not confident that I’ll ever get over another day without you here. Your perfection makes me despise myself, and I know for sure that you’ll never know that.

Have you not noticed my secretive glances in your way, the way my eyes shine and lips curl up whenever you talk to me? Have you not noticed how we could be so far apart, yet at a union in my heart? Sometimes I wish you could read me like a book, then you’ll never be far away. Yet at times, I wish you wouldn’t know what’s going on in my mind, wishing you’ll never know this love exists so that I can never face your rejection. There’s nobody I can see now except you, and there’ll never be one that could take your place. If you’d known all this, will you be willing to stay and reciprocate what I’ve given to you?

I want to be free, and yet, I want to be close to you.

Love,
the one you’ll never see.